Wednesday, May 17, 2006

angst

I feel a vague sense of angst, as if things are not going well. Sure, it is sunny; sure, the little kitten is happy playing with various cords and moving objects, but there is a vague sense of angst, as if the world was slightly out of tune.

"I met Brother Lawrence for the first time today. He told me that God had been especially good to him in his conversion. He was eighteen at the time, and still in the world. He told me that it had all happened one winter day, as he was looking at a barren tree. Although the tree's leaves were indeed gone, he knew that they would soon reappear, followed by blossoms and then fruit. This gave him a profound impression of God's providence and power which never left him. Borther Lawrence still maintains that this impression detached him entirely from the world and gave him such a great love for God that it hasn't changed in all of the forty years he has been walking with Him."
-from the Practice of the Prescence of God by Brother Lawrence.

1 comment:

crallspace said...

I get that feeling of angst you mentioned.

Since it eventually passes, I just think of that. Then, before I know it, it's gone... that's only if it's the angst that flows in without a tangible reason.

I get that on days off. I feel needed, or like I should be doing something besides relaxing or whatever.