So we all start seeing things after a while. I went to the co-op and S was there checking out stuff, and I asked her how she was and wanted to wish her well, which I did. Other the way we might have seen it, not so much a factor to figure out as a set of ideas somehow communicated with as much possibility as possible, so to speak. I am looking forward to going to the free meal and then going to karate.
I hope I am going to be feeling well enough for all that. My energy level is set at tired, it seems like and so it goes, people find things to do, and money to inherit, and all of that, kind of keeping it as well as it could be, a sorry state of affairs, I would guess.
Lori is coming over tomorrow to play music, so that is good. I am sure there will be a bit of benefit in that, a rock thing taking over somehow, carrying away as possible as we any can, try to unite a group, find a task we can enjoy being part of, or it will all seem to be quite strange.
It would be nice to go out and find a nice place to get stoned and watch the grass. However, the worry over the gastric condition is really tempering my joy in about anything at all, because of the worry. Yesterday was the day I was up until nine in the morning because I had run out of Seroquel. So then the entire next day was fucked.
I hope I will have more energy this afternoon, but maybe I’m just kind of burnt on guitar playing, but giving that a break won’t be much of a big deal. I practiced a bit this morning, and that was fun. So it goes, and we try to pick out patterns on the strings, and find a better band or a better group of friends, try to stay in good health, if only to make us all understand the issue, to have silence in the heart to hear the needs and wants of others.
So I am going around town, writing down thoughts in little booklets, hoping to see her around as soon as possible, but also kind of tired of chasing her, I would guess, and why ….so there’s always the question of why things happen in the way that they do.
In the long and short of it, I’m happy for many reasons, thoughts of Japanese and Spanish, being able to read novels, karate, yoga, music…